Being True

Where is it written that we should stand by and let things just be?  In my last blog, I am sure that I came across to some as being extreme.  Please accept my apology as that is not the what I wanted.  I am a very passionate person who cares especially when it comes to my family.  I am not one who sits by and just accepts things the way they are.  Thanks Mom for making me that way.
Today was a very relaxing day. No major interruptions or surprises like life can just throw at one with no warning.  At least  things are getting settled away with my father who at this time is going through very trying times with his medical problems. My father fell twice last month in his home after having amputation of his leg in January.  He is a diabetic who has mesothelioma, conjestive heart failure, and high blood pressure. As is customary with our aging parents, he lives on a fixed income that really doesn't go very far.  Oh yes and my father is a very stubborn man who will not listen at all to any person especially his children.  If I had a dollar for every time he has ever told me that I think I know more than he does, I would not have to work.  But regardless of what once was or ever will be he is still loved.
Maybe now that things are getting settled and going forward, I can get back to writing poetry.  Or I could do one of my other ongoing things.  Oh where does one start?  Wait I know well on second thought maybe that.  Goals, why yes I have goals.  I am a goal oriented person.  I have to admit that my goals are not always coming to pass as fast as I would like.  But I still trudge own with them.  Mom always said a baby has to crawl before it can walk, but my knees are getting sore and tired from the crawling.  God if you see this a little help would be greatly appreciated right now.  I know all is seen and heard.  It's just that sometimes it's human nature to wonder and I am human.  A human that admits I am not perfect  by any means and who always falls short but I try.  Onward I go though!  I sure can't say that with everything that has happened to us in the last four years that I haven't felt like just giving up.  But the question always comes to me that what would I do or accomplish by giving up.  Besides every day that I wake up life is still there and I have to face it.  After 10 plus years at a job what does one do or how do they start over when the company shuts down?  Get another job, well we did that.  As it turned out, the new job did not pay half as much as the recently lost job and we still lost everything.  But we are still happy and still have each other.  Well to be honest, we have always felt that material things can be let go as long as we had each other.  Here we are four years later proving it!  I can't say there haven't been any trying times, there have been too many.  But we keep surviving.  We look around and know there are people who have it worse than we do.  Oh and yes there is always education sure but without the right amount of money how does one go about paying for it.  Let me see, there are grants yes, wait we make too much money for just two people who doesn't have kids for a grant.  Oh yes that is exactly what I have been told.  Student loans?  No thank you, by the time the interest rate was added after at least four years one could still not survive because of having to pay the loan back.  Right now there are college graduates with doctorates working at minimum wage jobs so what about that college degree that was paid for by someone and not doing the person who earned it any good at this point.  Yes, these are some very good points.  Did it make a difference?  It really doesn't matter because I am being true to myself by being honest with myself.  The road not taken could have led to a different place but for some people it was either blocked by numerous things or detoured by other people.  One can't judge a person until you have walked a mile in their shoes.  No matter for I am still happy and trudging on as are other people.  Thank you to my family and friends for carrying me when I couldn't walk much less crawl.  I am truly blessed for having each one of you.